Villagers Gone Wild

I went to my dentist appointment in Southern Vermont to get my chipped tooth fixed. There were two so that should be plural and it went well. The dentist was very nice and the drive wasn’t too bad. Rap tunes kept me company, and just made everything better 😉

The area itself was very isolated and I feared the village people would come at me with their axes.

Today, I noticed one of the teeth already chipped. Yay. You may be wondering how come I’m not more bothered and that it because I have succumbed to the anger and overridden it. It is now mine.

I did call Dr. Chira and let her know that I was very frustrated because I don’t want to leave the country (which I am next week) with a fang. Needless to say, I think she’s going to appreciate the voice mail. Its just a baby break but still.

Is this normal?

Why is it happening?

Is THIS why they want to me get fake teeth all over? So they don’t break all the time?

Now that I’m reliving the moments I’m getting angry again. It is SO frustrating to spend more then 250 dollars to fix a tooth and then have it chip. Of course, it’s never refundable and I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY. They have explained it to me so many times but everytime I just don’t get it!

Do you?

Get Jaw Surgery: see the world.

I am sitting in a small bar in a side alley in the middle of New York City.

A crisp, cold glass of wine in hand.This morning after three hours of sleep, I woke up and departed for my appointment with dr Mac. I landed, cellphone rings.

Dr Mac is sick and my appointment is cancelled.

I kid you not.

After spending hundreds of dollars on two plane tickets ( of course, I begged my mother to come with me) we are back at the airport for our 10:30 p.m. flight back home.

I am obviously sorry that the doctor is sick. I just can’t believe that after everything, I am still in discomfort… and a chunk of dollars poorer.

I am trying to stay upbeat by thinking that maybe this means Dr. Mac will come up to see me next time. He visits up North a few times a year and I’m hoping that maybe he can just see me up here? I just cant afford another trip down there. And for those of you wondering if I did calm my sadness with cupcakes and shopping? No. Shopping? Yes. But there were no cupcakes.
My day was an emotional roller coaster. One second I was happy to be in New York City, my favorite American city. The next I was so upset to think of the money I had spent to get down there and the idea that I am back to square one.

Am I expecting too much? I know my pain matters to the doctors but there are so many factors that are pointing me in the direction of “these people just don’t care anymore.” I sometime feel like “Im done with the surgery, why should they even play attention to how im doing?”

As a conclusion to this entry. BE AWARE. Having jaw surgery is a life time commitment. Yes, you’re paying for surgery and yes, overall it ended up being about 100,000 dollars…but add on the trips you have to take. New York City and Santa Barbara are neither close nor cheap….Heck, they are probably in the top most expensive cities to visit.
I know the costs will pay off someday..when Im all healed. Oh, and also when I buy my parents a:
-car
-house
-boat
and, let’s add an albino baboon to that combination for all the “incidentals” that occurred before, during, and now after my surgery.

The costs just never seem to EVER end 😦
Thank you again for all your well wishes.

NUEVA YORK FOR THE DAY

I am happy to say that I did receive  a response and I was informed that Gunson knows of my pain and they will contact the doctor in New York City after my appointment.

Meanwhile, its 12:40 a.m and I got out of work an hour ago. I have to get on that plane at 6 am which means I need to wake up at 4 am. Goodness gracious.

This doctors appointment in NYC is going to be so important as I will finally get some treatment for my pain. How he’ll do it? I dont know. Will it work?

I’ve decided to take advantage of NYC and bring my savings with me. No, Im not spending everything in anticipaton for the apocapyse that is booked to occur in about two weeks. I am shopping for me 🙂 Boots, dresses, shirts oh my! I am so thankful my appointment is in the afternoon.

If I get bad news, just plan on finding me in an upper manhattan cupcake store surrounded my tons of bags and eating everything. Stressed IS desserts spelt backwards afterall….

Thank you all so much for your messages, thoughts, and prayers. They mean so much!
I am definetly relieved to have a response. I have put all my trust in Gunson and it’s still iI know that, god forbid, if anything was gravely wrong with my jaw, he would go to extremes to fix it and help me.

 

THE BAD

 

I am upset…and very disappointed.

Here I am, almost a year post-op and I have been on a soft chew diet for three days. I can’t believe I’m actually saying those dreaded word….SOFT CHEW. After not eating solid food for FOUR months I thought I was done with that, done with the dreaded feeling of being constantly hungry and weak.

To make matters worse? I am going to NYC exactly a year after I went right before going to California for the surgery. It’s like a bad Groundhog Day scenario!

I’ve been in a lot of pain. I don’t know why? I’ve been waking up with pain in my jaw so bad I can’t sleep through a whole night. My hearing’s impaired because of a connection between my jaw and my ears. When I chew anything or talk, a strange noise like…grinding noise or crunching echoes through my skull.

I have informed Dr. Gunson, letting him know that I made an emergency appointment to see Dr. Mac in NYC. Another 400 + dollars to fly down there and thats without the appointment cost.

I wrote to them last week asking them a question. Four days ago I wrote to them again because I got no reply, repeating my previous question and saying that I was scared, that I NEEDED some kind of reassurance. Did I go through months of pain and hell for nothing? After having facial reconstructive surgery I never thought I would be in any more pain. I was told I would be back to normal..and Im not.

I have followed every single recommendation and every rule possible.

I understand that sometimes these things happen, but there is nothing worse then when your feeling ignored.

I have spent a good part of the past three years dedicating myself to my surgery. My family has made so many sacrifices to afford all the doctors appoiontments, trips to NYC, trips to California.

I was very hesitant to write on here because I didnt want to scare anyone but with the recommendation of my friends and family, it’s something that needed to be said.

I wasn’t ready to still be having issues post-op. It seemed impossible for me.

Now I’m just wondering: is it a botched surgery? Is it something that was done wrong?Am I being lied to? Is their something wrong with my joints/ligmanets/ bone that NO ONE is telling me?

All I need is answers. A simple email back.

I don’t feel that that is too much to ask for?

Of course, its possible that maybe the doctors are on vacation. Perhaps my email is not working.  Last time I saw Gunson, I was nothing but happy and I am still so reassured by his confidence in my healing and overall improvement. I know Gunson cares about my overall recovery.

I will update you once I get back from NYC.

Stay strong my fellow surgery friends.

Pics!

Hi everyone!

(Had a shirt with “Just got my braces removed” made, thanks to mom for the purchase!!)

Here are some pictures of me with my new-and-improved smile. I was waiting to get my haircut and finally did it so…here they are!

I finally found a food that I hadnt been able to eat. Tootsie rolls. breaking off the pieces, I feel I can thoroughly enjoy them now!

The reason I put on this photo is because you can see the “new” shape of my jaw. And look at that slight cheekbone action happening 🙂

THEY’RE ON THEIR WAY OUUUTTT!

Yesterday was my appointment with the whole team. It is always such a wonderful delight to see them. Obviously, I came bearing gifts. Lake Champlain Chocolates (almond and cherry truffles) for the docs.

There is nothing funnier then having all three work on my mouth. You know those scenes from movies when you see the doctors from the view of the patient? All you can see is their faces with the lights attached to their heads….

I went in to my appointment expecting to find out when my braces would come off but I was also ready to not get an answer. That’s one thing that this process has taught me. Don’t expect anything at every appointment. Sometimes I would get no answer while others I would find out something that I didn’t even thinking anyone would know.

All I received was good news 🙂

Turns out my mouth is at a great place. I think I heard the word “perfect” being mentioned 😉 My braces are coming off in THIRTEEN days and I could not be more excited. This is the one thing I have been waiting for and I am still in shock that I’ll actually be able to smile like I used to. There’s nothing worse then being in a room full of people and not talking because you fear what people will say.

“Why do you have braces?” (The most frustrating question in my opinion. Oh, these ol’ things? I thought they looked good with my earrings so I got them put on.)

“OMG, I didnt even notice you had braces!?” (See, this one is half and half because on one side Im happy you didnt see them, but on the other side you just reminded me.)

The other day I was talking to a little girl at a chocolate store and no joke, she looks at me and goes. “DO YOU HAVE BRACES?” When you’re so close to getting them off it’s like you don’t care anymore about people asking. She said they were SO COOL! And I just laughed and said “I know!!” Ah, so naive. She has no idea….

So these babies are coming off in twelve days! TWELVE DAYS. TWELVE DAYS. TWELVE DAYS.I am definetly getting a t shirt that says “JUST GOT MY BRACES REMOVED!” I’ve been planning it for a while. I will be so happy that I won’t care if people stare. I have a beautiful smile and you are all welcome to see it 🙂

ONLY THIRTEEN DAYS!

No more flossing with a threader, no more elastic bands, no more pain.

I CAN’T WAIT.

Please feel free to ask me questions, I love reading them!

It’s the Final Count Down.

Well, countdown may be a little bit of an exaggeration but….a hopeful (very hopeful) date has been given for when I will finally be able to get my grill removed.

Dr. Chira will be having her baby in mid- November and has set up a time line in hopes of having everything complete by that date. Yay.

*  I have informed her that if they are not removed, I will in fact show up at the birth of her child and insist she remove them promptly 😉 Just kidding.

Anywho’s, my jaw is still feeling dandy and I even munched on a granola bar today. I was rummaging through the kitchen like a squirrel searching for food when my roomie said I could have the “hard” granola bars. I felt a sense of sadness as I realised my jaw wouldn’t be able to….Oh wait, yes it can. Tehehehehehe

I broke off pieces of the granola bar (okay there were three bars in all but they were different flavors and I wanted some variety) and my little jaw was working at it. I am hoping im not in pain tomorrow but I figure until I hear a bang, crack, or god forbid the sound of a metal screw coming loose, I will be just fine.

I am still taking all thirteen of my pills, yay. I enjoy showing onlookers my ability to take so many at once. I consider this a talent. Please don’ t try to challenge me as this can be dangerous.

I made some calculations and  have now swallowed:

1,095 daily vitamins,

and a whopping 3,500 fish oil pills.

CHAMPION.

With all the Omega 3 I take, I better live to be a hundred and five.

The other medicines don’t matter but it is all either the same or more then the above. Ah, the sweet thought of filling my body up with chemicals and fish nutrients is so refreshing.

* I have recently discovered that fish oil can be bought off of Amazon for a fraction of the price. Just a fact.

I am currently working at the front desk at a classy chassy hotel and to my surprise, a dental conference is booked for the rest of the week. Oh, what a joy. As soon as my boss mentioned this to me I smiled saying “they are going to be all over me.” I am expecting a whole array of questions that I will obviously shut down immediately by exclaiming “I’M A JAW SURGERY PATIENT. This is not your simple orthodontics sir, this is far more complicated.”

I will then offer to speak of my experience at this dental conference in return for donations. I am always thinking up of new ways to bring in the dough.

Please entertain me with more of your questions and think of me as my long journey through this lonnnngggg voyage comes to a slow finish. I have begun the descent and look forward to starting my journey on a brace-free land.